Life

I don't know what is happening in my life.
I don't know what is extremely wrong or perfectly right.
Sometimes, I wish I could laugh louder than those jokers in the circus,
And then I realize life is laughing harder at me.
Sometimes I wish I can get over my past,
And suddenly the depression arrives.
I really don't know the psychology behind my life,
Or the non-linear equations of relationships that are completely ruining my life.
I don't know what is happening in my life.
I want to resolve these complications,
But then I realize its too late.
I don't know how shall I react
Shall I be sorry or shall I forgive?
I want to live again or I want to die?